Mediocrity and Me.

One of my biggest fears growing up was not the dark. It was not death. It was not monsters or evil men. It was being AVERAGE. Woe is the one who becomes the very thing he fears. Today, I live the life of someone who does not care.

I have fallen into a place of mediocrity. 

This may sound as somewhat as a shock for those who know me, but it is the honest truth. I do not work my hardest, I do not think my deepest, I don't even feel my strongest. I have given up on ambition and settled for "enough." But enough is. not. GOOD. It is ok. It is.... "eh." Honestly my the best way I can describe the way I've been living is by going into a race, shrugging my shoulders and muttering "I think I'd rather walk." 

I'm TIRED of not CARING. 

I'm ready to fight mediocrity. I'm tired of settling for B's, skipping classes, not being intentional with those I care about, not spending enough time with God, going to bed late, waking up late, living half heartedly. I am so tired of being tired of being tired. WAKE UP, OH SLEEPER.

ARISE, MY SOUL. It's time. It's time to change.

It's not about 'not failing' it's about responding to failure with insight. Wisdom says that failure is healthy, but failing in the same place is not. I'm ready to change and to live exceptionally. I am not defined by what I haven't done, only by how I chose to respond. God have mercy on my efforts.

-A failure destined for greatness,

BJ Elkins